Doesn’t it feel like sometimes life is pulling you in so many directions. Quick! Get up and go to work. Rush home in time to do bedtime. Make a home cooked meal. Connect with your husband. Clean the house because there is pee all over the toilet (thanks to all the boys in the house). Another school project, make lunches, entertain the kids and also BE HAPPY about it!
Feels like a lot of pressure to do all the things and do it well. I know for me, I hold myself to such a high standard of being a mom, a nurse and a wife that yes, I am doing all the things but the question is…am I doing it well? The answer, if I am honest, is nope! The annoying part is you can’t say no to the kids needs or to going to work. You HAVE to do all those things because it is necessary to work to pay your bills and it is your job as a parent to support your kids emotionally, physically and spiritually. Oh yeah…hey husband I see you over there too giving me the eye.
Do you ever just want to be alone, you know, no responsibilities. What a life! Just kidding, all these things are good and enjoyable too but sometimes it’s too much on our plates. Why do we feel guilty about letting the kids watch a little more TV than we want them to so we can rest. I think because we know that they become monsters and it isn’t worth it. Something has to give a little! Every job is stressful at some point whether you are a stay-at-home mom or working in the hospital. I have done both jobs separately and I am currently trying to find the balance between the two. You know what, I can’t seem to find that balance. Something is always screaming “give me more attention!”
Can you relate to this feeling of being pulled in so many directions? I think it is nice to know that when we are in these seasons, we aren’t alone in this. When we call that friend who can relate and they say “yeah I get it” or “that makes sense” it really validates that feeling of being human. We can’t do it all even if that perfectionism in us wants to because something has to give. In the process though, we will lose ourselves if we don’t find ways to put ourselves first.
Recently, the question was asked “what do I like to do for fun?” and you know what? I have no idea. I just do all the tasks, all the time and expect to be joyful about it. Why? Work is not fun. Being a parent can be fun but sometimes it freaking sucks and that is ok. I guess the a goal would be to find ways to have fun throughout my day so the mundane and annoying parts of work and life don’t seem so bad.